I have recently discovered how easy is it to walk through life and be completely unaware of the people around you, sometimes on purpose (not going to lie) but sometimes it feels like second nature to just tune out and go about the routines of life because it's easier. It takes work to be present in every moment!! I want to look at the child like they are the most amazing thing to step foot into the classroom, even the terds. I want to pay closer attention to cues from people to give small glimpses into their life. I will say another thing i have discovered, people who give small glimpses are afraid of something, or hiding something...sometimes both and is an indicator to be sensitive!
For my normal day, I am not an affectionate person. I rarely hug people. I have just never been a hugger. If I do hug its usually because the other person initiated it or it's a crisis. It's not that i dont want to be affectionate because i totally do! It is just hard for me. Which is completely strange because my family is very affectionate and I grew up with lots and lots of love.
Slowly, over the past few weeks and being surrounded with laughs and voices of kids and with their affection is helping me be more huggy and touchy. My heart just melts when they are running to the classroom yelling " mrs. G! mrs. G!" and wrap their tiny arms around my waist and squeeze so tightly. Throughout the day, they want to do handshakes and hold your hand, and tell you about every detail of their night before and plans for the weekend. Its PRECIOUS! So for this part of my life, these 2nd grader's purpose is breaking down some major affection barriers, because they have none. What my purpose is for them? I don't know yet.
